I want to be one of those people that takes chances. One of those people that everyone likes. One of those people who everyone knows their name. I want to be brilliant. I want to be amazing. I want to be happy. I don't want to waste my life thinking 'What if...', I want to be wasting my life thinking 'Now I know'. My mind is like a kaleidoscope. As haphazard and mismatched as it may be, it is mathematical and beautiful.
Sometimes I'd kill to be like that. I only want to do something great, and for me, it looks like it starts off with getting educated. My life has always been so scripted. The most dangerous thing I ever did in high school was sneak out a couple of times with my loser boyfriend. I had perfect attendance from third grade till twelfth grade, for God's sake. It was ridiculous. I played by the rules because I never wanted to get in trouble. I fell in line exactly how I was supposed to. I don't regret it. Even now, I know I can get away with stuff, but I don't test the waters. It's who I am.
ReplyDeleteYou can play the game however you want, and you'll find you want to be on both sides. But I guarantee more often than not you will pick a certain side. It will make you happy.
And you'll know when to go skinny dipping, when to go for joyrides, and when to take those chances. This alone will be the best adventure of your life.
I love how you put mathematical and beautiful together because that defines me most of the time. I don't have to see the math to believe something, but I'd prefer to. I'm all about risk management and efficiency, and even if I never do anything substantial, at least I'm real and in the real world. Remember they can never take you down if you're smart. Smart people always win.
I feel like my life is by the book most of the time.
ReplyDeleteMy dad's a lawyer, so I feel like I have to be this proper student and I never do anything wild.
My GPA has never been under a 3.6 I've never not been in an honors class (sans math and Spanish-- the only two subjects I struggle with) and I've never taken a walk on the wild side.
I'm a litle afraid I'm going to live my life like this forever and when the time comes to do something spontaneous and uncalled for, I'll be scared and chicken out.
I suppose I'll figure it all out in due time.
"Remember they can never take you down if you're smart. Smart people always win."
Truer words have never been spoken, Jac. :)